I'm a Goan woman, working in Mumbai as the founder of a studio called Totem Creative. I try to make the world happier, safer and more meaningful. I believe education, knowledge and awareness, art, writing and creating Social Impact are my means to achieve that end.



Friday, June 28, 2013

Messed up 48 hours.

28th June 2013

So I've had a terrible 3 days here. I realised my Sc. 5 was accidentally missing from my Film Folder, and when it hit me that my last backup was a March backup that had 2 months of work done after that, I was feeling absolutely broken-hearted. I didn't know if it was worth continuing this film. I was drowning in sorrow at the thought of having to do all that work again. I googled it, got a few recovery softwares that mostly hung and some showed some files I wasn't looking for. I called a good friend who suggested two good data-recovery softwares. 'Wondershare', the best one I'd tried took 12 hours to scan my PC for all the files that were deleted from my Recycle bin. It didn't have it. At 3 am I decided to give up. It was gone.

I tried to get over it and move on as quickly as possible. I could not afford to give up now. It would be like dropping out of college in your final year. I was on the verge of finishing the film, and would probably make it in time for a couple of film festivals. Whatever.

The next morning I woke up feeling heavy - the way one feels after a really tough previous night. I started my laptop and plugged in my resources hard disk. It was not getting detected. I thought I'd eject it and plug it again. My laptop made that irritating error noise, and it gave me a warning: 'You have to format drive /G: to use it.' and it gave me two options: Format - Cancel. I was blank. WTF was this? Chance was totally picking on me. I ejected it and plugged it back, hoping for it to work normally. The same error appeared. I admitted it to myself; my hard disk was corrupted. 'It's okay, what am I losing? Just all my tutorials and reference images and videos. Some pencil tests. A few ebooks and an inspiration folder. I have a backup of the inspiration folder though.' I thought.

Man, this was really messed up. I called WD, they suggested so many options. I tried all of them but everytime I inserted the drive it gave me the same error. I ran through some commands and it hung consistently, refusing to let me access the data. I took it to a 3rd party to fix. The next day he told me his PC hung while trying to recover the data too.

I laughed at my own circumstances. This was hilarious. Well, fuck this shit. I'm just gonna work twice as hard and twice as fast now. I'm going to develop an O.C.D that presses Ctrl+S while I'm working on TVP. I'm gonna backup everything before sleeping every night. I'm gonna walk away from this like a winner. Chance can go mess with someone else now. Like.A.Boss.



Today I'm feeling so fast. Ram would say, 'Ye dekh blur'. He used to tease me saying I work like a blur, a flash. ;) Looks like I'm back.

Listening to: 'The Figher' - Gym Class Heroes

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Travel Update

12th June 2013

Sooo, I have been travelling a LOT. One gets pretty tired of sitting at home and procrastinating work once one graduates. Life is very uncertain after graduation, and there's avoid you have to fill or you get depressed quickly. I was dying to go to Leh Ladakh, Kashmir for a very long time. Finally my family and I decided to go north where it's a climate we're not familiar with (being Goans and living in the South with the heat and rain and humidity). It was an adventure. It was not what I expected, which made it an adventure all the more.

 Besides having motion sickness and severe migrains thanks to the low Oxygen levels there, I got to enjoy the most gorgeous senery and be with nature. It was wonderful.


After we got back to Delhi, I left my parents and went on a trip to Ramgarh, Uttarakhand where my friend Prachi recently built a house. That trip was just what I needed. After Leh these mountains were nothing. Ramgarh is a place in the hills, very close to Nainital. We plucked apricots, peaches and plums right from her orchard and got to see clouds passing through us! It was beautiful, and I got to spend it with my two awesome college friends Prachi and Madhuwanti.


 I got back home yesterday, and I feel so fresh and have a new wave of eagerness to work and produce some magical stuff. :) So that's why I've been explaining what I'm upto.

On the work front, me and my friend Laskhmi have decided to take up the MAGNIFICIENT! the CHALLENGING! the DAUNTING! the EXCITING - 30 DAY ANIMATION CHALLENGE!! >:)

Hells yeah! So yesterday was day one and we decided to animate blinks. I managed to finish 3 and realized how rusted I am! I really need to get my shit togetha! Today, weight shift. :/ Hope we last till day 30!

And lastly about my film, I am getting back to it and not giving up. I am more determined than ever to see it through.

Rock on guys! \m/